I was looking for a kind of a life formula which would combine intuition and rationality to help to take important decision easily and with the necessary confidence, since I believe that being confident in making the right choice for oneself and for others (as we are sociable human beings) and to do it means happiness.
In seeing all this spirtual wisdoms and the apparently right ways to live to be happy, it suggested to me that you are either spiritual or a rational asshole without emotions.
At this point I’d like to say: pay attention on what you believe. Because although we say that all the bad what is happening in the world nowadays is due
to what ’they’ inculcated us, ’they’ can still have us with spiritual words. So be aware what you choose to believe what others suggest. But this is a topic for itself.
So I’ve been trying out the rationality and the intuition state to an extreme extent.
Version 1: Only living by the soul and intuition
By only listening to intuition, means I had to connect completely with my soul and would only do what my intuition would tell me to do, I could stand behind my choices and would know that this would be of sure my pure essence. Still I had the problem that in only fullfilling my pure essence (For understanding I’d like to add that my pure essence maybe doesn’t care about paying my assurance bill), I could hardly give attention to materalistic matters. Even if I wanted to and knew I should to be able to survive, these things had to fight against my true essence which would whisper to me that everything matters but materalistic things.
Sometimes I wouldn’t have things done just because there was nothing like a hurry to do so nor a feeling of time.
My body needs just felt like they would be in my way, because there would be far more important things in life. Everything was superfluous. I would even sleep in the streets just because I felt like it doesn’t matter really. My only focus was to nourish my spirit and to live for that. I lost completely the notion of time and environment I lived in. I changed completely, very much in appearance and I felt uncomfortable and vulnerable within society.
To survive in such a state, you must at least have someone which assures your bodily needs, providing you with food and security because the spirit, the soul dosen’t need those things.
That must be the reason why one become a monk or a nun.
I assume in continuing this way I would end up as a homeless or as a nicer version I would go to the jungle to live on my own with nature under my coconut tree and animals would be my only friends.
Version 2: Only living by rationality
In trying to only be rational, I would try to take decisions based on logic and would listen to the logic of others as I didn’t have a feeling of being certain in a lot of my rational decisions. Everything what I’ve been doing so far, things and events I could identify myself with, just made no sense anymore.
Things I would do due to an intuition, would appear to be complete nonsense in my rational thinking. My logic couldn’t find any reasonable reason to do it.
I couldn’t live out any of my emotions anymore. I was focussing to just give the logic action to my thoughts (which were not my real intentions as I would listen to others suddelny what I would rarely do before while listening to intuition).
At this time I could attain almost everything I was seeking. But on the way, I lost completely connection to my true feelings.
As I still felt to nourish something else than just my body and to be a logic machine, I began to nourish the wrong type of feelings, which was my ego. I dind’t find anything else really as I lost connection to my inner myself.
Honestly this state turned out to be worse than version no. 1 (living the soul). I was not only loosing myself, my real me and couldn’t stand myself anymore. I got the sense that this was all wrong and would feel like a dead person or let’s say soul (Like people use to say, they feel dead in the inside). Something like: I dead soul in a kind of functionable body.
In that time I’d say I was just a 30% myself and I would put a lot of effort in being something I wasn’t.
Conclusion: Nor by only listening to rationality and neither by only listening to my intuition I couldn’t be really happy. It is for sure that there must be a coherence between these two. There must be a reason why we’re not only souls and not only functionable bodies. Maybe that’s here where the mind, the thinking plays its main role.
As a matter of fact, none of both is working without the other. Still I felt I was a lot more myself in version 1 as a spiritual being than being only logical and rational. After all that, it’s of my certainty that we have to combine what we are as a human being, a so called rational soul and bring our soul as a
leader of what we intend to be and to do in form of intuition, adjusted by some rationality in a smaller amount to have the appropriate conclusion of a situation and therefore take the right action.
If we find a way to keep both in healty relation to each other and to be able to take decisions, which fullfill all our desires as a human being in a healthy amount and ratio, we would be happy.
I could go far more into details and tell you a lot of stories with it, but I assume this would only confuse more than help anyone. There is no formula or experiment as such which can be exerted to anyone with the exact same result.
Furthermore it’s important to understand the definition of soul and rationality to understand what I’m trying to say.
I also would like to add that I’m still experimenting on this.